Meditation Diary-211022

life is streaming online always

there are streamings inside streamings, streamings above streaming, and streaming adjacent to streamings

sometimes the desperate habitual limb of language and discrete senses pick up from the streams and we keep treading-trading them

giving rise to

to-do lists always lurking around

to-become lists too

sometimes this realization paralysis

sometimes it invites a shift

sometimes, it helps to simply hardstop anything thinking about any of the task, and simply just start one…just start one

sometimes i have discovered that being in the action mode for any task is better than being in thinking or feeling about any or many of them

this sort of “kickstart-mono-tasking” has helped me a lot several times

sometimes the feeling of “movement” that arise from the “actioning” helps tremendously rather than thinking/overthinking or feeling/overfeeling or saying/oversaying

and such movement sometimes cushions the relationship with the pending or unresolved issues or tasks

over time, i feel that i need to create a dynamic balance between “do and then think or feel" about it” versus “think and feel and only then do it”.

of course, there is no such thing as finally final, whether in doing or thinking or feeling

over time, one can build an inventory of

silence, stillness, mono-tasking, micro-shifting, multi-tasking, multi-shifting, and more